The Process

Someone once told me that everyone had their own process, and it’s important not to lose yourself to that. To not to lose yourself in the nasty game of comparison, and self-judgement. And honestly, that is very much easier said than done. It takes a real long while before humbling yourself in your own personal process, and enjoying the growth that comes along with it. When you wake up in the morning, immediately reach for your cellphone, and begin scrolling through a feed of glam, curated postings, and the accomplishments of others… it can truthfully make you feel like you don’t do enough, or anything at all in life. That feeling is super toxic and very hard to shake off. But.. as toxic as gasoline itself can be, all it takes is one spark to turn that into some V8 Horsepower fuel (corny I know lol).

It can be a spark of creative genius, or maybe a spark of determination, idk every artist is different.. but what I realized was those moments where my spark came to me, were the same moments I was lost in my own process. It was when I lost myself in things like getting ready for new headshots, finding new monologues and plays to read, recording cover songs, or investing in a personal website. The minute I begin to lose myself in the processes of my friends and family is the minute my artistic fire dies and starts to morph back into that toxic gasoline floating around in my bloodstream. The common saying is to “ trust the process” , and I do agree with that, but if I could add my own bit of advice to that it be.. “Trust the process, and trust yourself along the process. Because when you do, your spark will never go away.”